When do you forgive. When is the point that something becomes unforgiveable? Is there ever a point? I grew up hearing the God says to forgive 70 X 7 times. Wow!! Well... I can't seem to forgive a situation between me and my sister-in-law. She choose drugs and herself, over her kids, family, and ME. She sent CSD to my house (this was a few years ago) to do a well-child check.
I can't get rid of the guilty feeling, for not forgiving her. I am not sure how to find the line between forgiveness and forgetting. Maybe I have forgave her, but am not willing to forget it. Maybe it is more about "hurt me once, your fault... hurt me twice, my fault!"
What about hurt me NO MORE.
UGH! Ok... this probally makes little sense without the drama between the lines, huh! Oh my!!
Well... I just wrote her. She is currently in jail for various charges, mostly dealing with drugs and fraud I think. I also helped her send her husband to jail for molesting their daughter. He always said he was innocent but took a 5 yr plea deal. A really crapping legal attorney didn't help that. :(
They are so much drama together, and I don't know what to do. UGH!!
I don't need any more drama in my life. I like my simple plain life with my husband and kids. I am often afraid to make new friends now, because I don't want to deal with drama. But, then that just makes me feel like I should feel more lonely. I don't though. But, I worry about the day when I don't have kids at home and become less busy and begin to notice the lonely times.
OK... this is depressing. LMAO
I really am happy for now... maybe I should just stick with living for the moment. LOL
1 comment:
Yes, live for the moment. I had someone do something to me that is unforgivable, years ago. I did not like this person,she liked me even less. As a christ follower, we are taught to forgive......I have yet to do this, I just can't. It was pure evil that this woman did to me. I pray about this and I ask for forgiveness for not forgiving. I guess I should be asking for the strength to be forgiving. URGH, it's too much! I try not to think about it and just be thankful for my life and family. I'm also thankful that I'm not her! BTW, it's Randy's ex that I'm speaking of. There is a wonderful blog on my sidebar called 'choose to bloom'. Take a look, Meghan has some great things to say that might help.
Hugs to ya
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