I had put away my painting supplies last fall. I just didn't want to drag out the supplies and paint, just to think "Now, what do I do with THIS?" LOL
I made things for gifts for Christmas last year, for my sister-in-laws and my MIL. Two of my SIL's didn't take theirs home, they left them at my mil's. I still don't know which ones that is. I don't want to ask. But, yet I want to know. I hate the thought of someone not enjoying the thought in a gift. Then I think, "Oh, let it go, and enjoy the thought that you had when you made them for them." UGH!
Anyways...
So the other day my daughter and I decided to make stakes for the garden. I wanted to paint veggies on the stakes. I then remembered the wooden flower pot shapes I had gotten but didn't have a use for yet. So I drug out all the stuff, my daughter at my side, and sat down to paint. It felt good to enjoy painting again. And the best part, the things I painted will be used!
I am the kind of artist that needs to make usable items. I don't put alot of $$ into things, I buy clearance specials, and want to find enjoyment, relaxation, etc. in the process. The life as I knew it is not the same anymore. Gas is costing more, which is making EVERYTHING cost more. I worry more today than yesterday. I don't like this new way of life. I am angry at government, politics, oil supplies, the future, the past, etc. I need to find a way to stop being angry. But, what is it?
I sit here trying to think about ways to make myself think happy thoughts and not hopelessness. I don't know how to do this. I talk to myself, to God, to friends, I am strong, I am weak... everything I am supposed to do. Life sure is difficult sometimes. The thing I keep thinking though...
I was taught "God will NOT give us more then we can handle." How true is that? Well... yep... everything I can think of that has been hard in my life... has brought pain but sure has come out OK in the future. :)
I just have to hang in here and trust that the future has God's reasoning in it. :)
I made things for gifts for Christmas last year, for my sister-in-laws and my MIL. Two of my SIL's didn't take theirs home, they left them at my mil's. I still don't know which ones that is. I don't want to ask. But, yet I want to know. I hate the thought of someone not enjoying the thought in a gift. Then I think, "Oh, let it go, and enjoy the thought that you had when you made them for them." UGH!
Anyways...
So the other day my daughter and I decided to make stakes for the garden. I wanted to paint veggies on the stakes. I then remembered the wooden flower pot shapes I had gotten but didn't have a use for yet. So I drug out all the stuff, my daughter at my side, and sat down to paint. It felt good to enjoy painting again. And the best part, the things I painted will be used!
I am the kind of artist that needs to make usable items. I don't put alot of $$ into things, I buy clearance specials, and want to find enjoyment, relaxation, etc. in the process. The life as I knew it is not the same anymore. Gas is costing more, which is making EVERYTHING cost more. I worry more today than yesterday. I don't like this new way of life. I am angry at government, politics, oil supplies, the future, the past, etc. I need to find a way to stop being angry. But, what is it?
I sit here trying to think about ways to make myself think happy thoughts and not hopelessness. I don't know how to do this. I talk to myself, to God, to friends, I am strong, I am weak... everything I am supposed to do. Life sure is difficult sometimes. The thing I keep thinking though...
I was taught "God will NOT give us more then we can handle." How true is that? Well... yep... everything I can think of that has been hard in my life... has brought pain but sure has come out OK in the future. :)
I just have to hang in here and trust that the future has God's reasoning in it. :)
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